One Spring Day

Amongst the millions of questions that have been running through my head the past 6 weeks, the one I was most desperately looking for answer is “What is the quickest way to Fall out of Love?”

Everywhere I looked I saw the same old answer: Give it time.

Time will heal. That I know.

I just did not know that when you are drown in desperation Time will also slow down.

I just did not know that 24 hours could somehow feel like an eternity…

Then it hit me.

The reason I couldn’t Fall Out of Love is because I never did Fall In Love.

19 years ago, when I met you on our first date, I did not fall in love.

17 years ago, when we got married, I did not fall in love.

13 years and 10 years ago, when we had our children, I did not fall in love.

I walked – however slowly it was – in to Love with You.

Love is a Choice, and I chose to walk in to Love with you when I saw your lonely figure under the porch that one night 19 years ago.

Love is Commitment, and I committed to be on the same path with you that 17 years ago.

Love is hard work, and I decided to work on Love to build our family, some 13 years ago.

We walked together from the have-not to the have-a-lot

We walked together from the negative to the multi figures

We walked together from the little apartment to the house bigger than we ever imagined

I walked in to Love with you.

Through good days and bad days, through hurricane and blizzard, through Springs and Winters, I walked in to Love with you.

So, the only thing that makes sense for me to do right now is to Walk out of Love.

Time will heal. And I will take that time to Walk out of Love.

Slowly but surely I am walking.