One Spring Day

So, the day has come. I can’t believe that it’s been one year since that faithful day. The day when I thought I lost everything.

The day that not only changed my life but also the lives of my beloved ones.

I have been preparing for Today since couple of weeks ago.
Everything came back to me, so clearly like it was just yesterday.

Somehow, I started thinking about every details of THE event; and many other memorable events that followed in May and June.

I relived the sequence of events that lead to that day, and many other memorable days in May and June.

I could still feel the exact feelings I experienced while was going through that pain. The first month, the second month…and all the months after that.

I could still feel the sharp pain stabbing straight to the most sensitive spot in my heart.

I could still feel the immense disappointment talking to him on the phone when I was away in Jeju Island, Korea.

I could still see the image of me sitting in the garden of a Guest house in Korea, crying alone.

I could still see the emptied Me, roaming around Seoul on a bus during rush hours. Me.
Standing there like a sardine, being pushed around by other commuters and
Cry.
I cried like I was in my own world, with no care for my surrounding. Everything disappeared; except me, my nothingness and my pain.

I remember all the events that led me to where I am Today.

TODAY

For the longest time since whenever, I feel that I am living a very meaningful life. I have so many purposes in this life.
Even if it’s not for me, I owe it to my parents to live a good life. There is no better way to make them happy than being happy myself.
It is my responsibility to be Happy.

Even if it’s not for me, I owe it to my parents to live a good life. There is no better way to make them happy than seeing their Mother happy.
It is my duty to be Happy.

Even if it’s not for me, I owe it to my friends and family to live a good life. There is no better way to make them happy than seeing their friends and families happy.
It is my debt to be Happy.

TODAY
I am thankful for the Growth the Pain has brought
I am thankful for the Love from “my people”
I am blessed for the Support from my Children
Today, I have got so many Found’s with just one Lost that long time ago.

TODAY I am Happy.